I wrote this song as a bit of a middle finger to all the bullies who made me feel worthless and small when I was growing up. I feel like I’ve been carrying them around in my head all my life and they still have the power to hurt me. This song is my fight song.
I was a weird, imaginative, dreamy kid at school and one way I used to get through those painful days was to channel a warrior Queen alter ego I was writing a play about. Whenever I felt exhausted and beaten down, I’d try and channel this made up heroine of mine who was everything I wished I was. Asking myself “what would she do” was so helpful to me in those days because it allowed me to shake off some of those chains and almost escape from it all. I wasn’t sad, fat, lonely, unhappy Karliene, I was a brave, confident, positive warrior Queen and they couldn’t touch me.
Now I couldn’t write a song about her because she wouldn’t mean anything to anyone so I decided to write a song about Boudica, the magnificent warrior Queen of the British Iceni tribe who led an uprising against the occupying forces of the Roman Empire. I’ve always been fascinated with her story so she seemed a fitting choice for my fight song.
I wanted to write this for me but I do hope it might help some other people out there who are going through what I did. Sometimes it seems so dark and hopeless but if you can channel your inner warrior and keep fighting, your day will come.
I spent my whole life feeling like nothing and now here I am at 31 years old making a living out of what I love, an album in the Billboard charts and I have wonderful fans from all over the world. It’s so surreal and so wonderful and I’ve never felt less worthless.
Just please, if you are where I was, don’t give up, don’t be beaten down, just find your inner Boudica and stay strong. xx
In honor of my hero, David Bowie, this song is free for all my fans to download, however, if you would like to give a few dollars, can I ask you donate it to one of Bowie’s much beloved charities : Keep a Child Alive
There are still over 36.9 million people living with AIDS today and over 41% of those don’t have access to treatment, that includes children. If you would have spent a couple of bucks on my single, could you donate it to these guys instead and make Bowie smile. I think it would make him happy. Thank you.
Enjoy the song.
Goodnight Starman. xx
My heart goes out to all those poor people in Paris. There are no words for how heartbroken and helpless I felt watching those terrifying and senseless images play out on the tv yesterday. It’s just devastating.
The world is with you. Stay strong.
My cover of the wickedly awesome title theme from the tv series Salem by Marilyn Manson
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A musical exploration of the life of Mary Jane Kelly, the last known victim of Jack the Ripper. With this album I really wanted to explore the life of this young, beautiful Irish girl, after all, she wasn’t just a murder victim, she was a person with dreams and passions, friends and lovers.