I wrote this song as a bit of a middle finger to all the bullies who made me feel worthless and small when I was growing up. I feel like I’ve been carrying them around in my head all my life and they still have the power to hurt me. This song is my fight song.
I was a weird, imaginative, dreamy kid at school and one way I used to get through those painful days was to channel a warrior Queen alter ego I was writing a play about. Whenever I felt exhausted and beaten down, I’d try and channel this made up heroine of mine who was everything I wished I was. Asking myself “what would she do” was so helpful to me in those days because it allowed me to shake off some of those chains and almost escape from it all. I wasn’t sad, fat, lonely, unhappy Karliene, I was a brave, confident, positive warrior Queen and they couldn’t touch me.
Now I couldn’t write a song about her because she wouldn’t mean anything to anyone so I decided to write a song about Boudica, the magnificent warrior Queen of the British Iceni tribe who led an uprising against the occupying forces of the Roman Empire. I’ve always been fascinated with her story so she seemed a fitting choice for my fight song.
I wanted to write this for me but I do hope it might help some other people out there who are going through what I did. Sometimes it seems so dark and hopeless but if you can channel your inner warrior and keep fighting, your day will come.
I spent my whole life feeling like nothing and now here I am at 31 years old making a living out of what I love, an album in the Billboard charts and I have wonderful fans from all over the world. It’s so surreal and so wonderful and I’ve never felt less worthless.
Just please, if you are where I was, don’t give up, don’t be beaten down, just find your inner Boudica and stay strong. xx